It was too early for you to go, many times i find myself alone amidst a huge crowd. in a house full of people but i still fee alone. am the kind of person who loves seeing everyone happy. i don’t enjoy haring my problems with others you can call me an introvert.
it was too early for you to go, I remember how you looked at me, your powerful smile, how you worked so hard every night and day. I hated your boss for making you work that hard day in, day out. i remember how you always wanted the best for me. How we played together. How you asked me if i was fine, you will always be my HERO no matter where you are.
it was too early for you to go, before i got to know what your favorite color was, what you favorite food was. all i remember was your favorite song, your favorite dance move, i remember that attire i always picked out for you to wear to work. You always asked me knowing the exact one i was going to pick out for you and we both smiled at each other. it just looked so good on you. the lime green just made your smile even brighter.
it was too early for you to go, i see life in a very different way. and in most cases i am caught up in my little world. A lonely place even when i have a billion people who love and care about me. i think about the past but i rarely talk about them. somethings hurt so deep that i never feel ready to talk about them with anybody else.
it was too early for you to go, losing someone you loved so dearly, a best friend is something you can never recover from no matter how long it takes. losing my best friend 13 years back, i was still a kid but the wounds are as fresh as they were in 2006. i’m always fighting with the memory of that year, i have pushed back the tears a billion times and smiled even when my heart was bleeding.
It was too early for you to go, my friends say “you are the happiest girl I have ever come across. “you make every thing seem okay”, ” when do you ever get sad?” ” I have never seen you angry.” i smile and look at them smiling and i feel like my purpose is fulfilled. but when i’m all alone, it hurts.
It was too early for you to go, i have never found someone that i can share this painful memory with. its always there everywhere but i have just never thought of anyone pure enough to hear about it.
It was too early for you to go, i live with it, i sleep with it, i wake up with it every day for the past 13 years. i try my best to try to get through every day without you. it was too soon for you to go. i don’t know if i’m mad at you or sad. it gets harder every day.
It was too early for you to go, i just cant get over you. i needed you so bad. i still do. i have so many questions i want to ask you about. how to go go about with life and this stage of my life i need you even more. you left and days passed by, months, years, decades and i still cant get you out of my mind.
It was too early for you to go, am so scared of letting you down. i don’t want to disappoint you. i watch as everyone grabs what you left behind and i don’t know how to stop it.
it was too early for you to go, i still see you face. you don’t look so happy. i know what i have to do to make your face happy, but i don’t know how.
it was too early for you to go, but i will not let you down. you will be happy again.
It was too early for you to go, The thing I have to remember to hold closest to me is the fact that tomorrow will start again, and though it comes without your presence, it starts again. And thankfully it starts again with the memories of you and all of the wonderful moments you left for me to remember you by. Tomorrow starts again with new moments of joy, new memories to make, new tears, new friends, new adventures and new reasons to look forward to the start of another day. And although tomorrow may start on a sad note, it still starts and it holds the promise of becoming something wonderful.
I miss you my best friend.